It's not that. [ She sighs and runs a hand through part of her hair. Even that feels weird in this outfit. It takes her a while to finally work up the courage to explain. Terra seems like a nice person, not someone who'll go rampaging about her... and it isn't like the people who matter don't already know, right? ]

It's complicated. The last time I used magic, I was really good at it... but I got addicted to the raw power and I hurt people I cared about. I hurt Buffy's little sister really badly a-and... I drove my girlfriend away. I don't want that to happen again.

I want to learn, but I don't know if I can.